New Year, New Me, New Job

As the new year has rolled around, alot has come with it that is new: for us, mainly, is our son, Isaiah Benjamin Dusing. Just after he was born, the song from Cinderella that goes, "So this is love, da da da da, so this is love...." stuck in my head for a while. A new little human, a new life, a precious gift from God -- to us. And now we are charged, as his parents, to take care of him. Yikes.

With a new child, it means that I have a new full-time job. Being a mom. I'm leaving my 'career' (if you can call it that...it's a big of a stretch) in cooking behind, and walking into something totally new, foreign, and substantially more stressful--yet with much more joyful and rewarding moments.

In the transition, one month in, I've had good days and bad days. Bad days when I'm struggling with the notion that my main focus in life now is this little being, my son. Good days when all I want to do is gaze at his sweet little face, kiss his cheeks, and snuggle with him all day long, for he is sooo precious.

So, I thought in order to help me process this new role, especially for the bad days at first, a place such as this where I can write about it would help. I want it to be an honest blog, which since I have a tendancy to sugar coat things might be more difficult than I think. I want to be real with my emotions and what I'm thinking and feeling. So, read if you wish, ignore if you wish. Take what you want and leave the rest. This is just me, learning to be a mommy.